October 2008 Journal Entry.

There is a strange longing in my spirit. A restlessness, a beckoning, a lack of contentedness. A desire to see more, to do more and to be more than what is simply expected of me. It's a silent, yet disturbing feeling. A strange sense of familiarity mixed with an ever present feeling of subtle discomfort. A desire to draw near to the One who is never far away. One whose name brings overwhelming peace and presence to any situation or circumstance. One who is jealous for my heart, my mind and my time. It's a call to come back, to come forth and to call out for holiness, purity and unity. To come back to the simple truth of who Christ is and what his Hearts Cry is. To understand Him like never before through intimacy with His spirit. To desperately desire His will and to hold tightly to His commands. To pray with a passion rather than an obligation. To consume his word as if it was our only source of life. To understand our limits and weakness only to recognize our utter dependence on his faithfulness and grace. To lay down our temporary desires and goals that will serve to only satisfy our earthy lives but to live for the eternal. To set out eyes on the things above. To shine with such light that the world is left in complete awe of our love for another and most of all a Love for our Creator. To live above the norm. To stop comparing our Christianity with those around us and live with conviction to the standards of the word. To stop blaming and pointing the finger and wake up to the other three fingers pointing back at us. To live our lives as a testimony to the hope that we have found. It is time to stop blending in with our surroundings and time to stop playing church and to start diving into the pure and unaltered presence of God daily, both in our personal and public lives. It is time to put an end to compartmentalizing our lives to conform to what feels right at that time. To let Holiness consume our hearts AT ALL TIMES. To stop settling for less than what He holds for us. To stop trying to manipulate His hand according to our plans. Becoming less and less and allowing Him to fill us more and more through fasting and surrender. To reach out to the hurting and those without hope. To become the one whom Isaiah speaks of in chapter 61. An anointed messenger. To care for the widowed and the fatherless, both physically and spiritually speaking, as unto those who do not believe. To no longer blend in with our surroundings but to be set apart as He has called us to be. To live for a higher calling which is for His purpose. To stand and not back down in the face of adversity. To remain strong when faced with trials, not losing our faith nor dare we blame God, but like Job, praise him through the storms, for He is still worthy. He is unchanging, so we too must be steadfast. To be ready in season and out of season. To study his word and be filled with His wisdom so that we may show ourselves approved when called to take a stand. To hold out for purity's sake, that we may be a blameless and spotless bride when in a blink of an eye, the Bridegroom returns. Hiding his word deep in our hearts, being transformed by the renewing of our mind. This is a High calling for those who love Christ. But it is not only I who has been called to this. If you are a follower of Christ may this stirring in my heart encourage you to draw closer to the One who is never far and to live life beyond what you have planned, but to set those plans aside and take up this cross of extraordinary significance. To listen to the voice of the Lord and to set forth on a journey of holiness which we are all called to. Let us lay our lives down and take up a renewed spirit and passion to live for the one who died because of his relentless love for you....and who lives now, inside our hearts. Be Gods. Be Blessed.